Day 38

 "The people stood by,

watching:

but the leaders scoffed at Jesus, saying,

'He saved others.

Let him save himself

if he is the Messiah of God,

the chosen one!'"

Luke 23:35

"If He is the Messiah of God..."

I am like them at times

the leaders 

scoffing at Jesus

I have been privy to His miraculous works

felt the touch of His gentle healing

known of gifts of new life He has given

Yet often it seems

He takes a back seat 

watches from a distance

acts so very

"unMessiah-like"

while

I

and others

wait for suffering's reprieve

We are caught

 in the present

overcome by life's onslought

desperate that the Father

"remove this cup"

and faint of heart when it comes to

"not what I will, but what You will." 

And so

when I cry

"I believe...help my unbelief!!!"

it comes from the deepest place in me--

 surrender in human frailty

Accept my offering of weakness

it pales 

in the face of Yours