Waiting Again

The unknown

unrest

and questions

continue as themes this Lent

In the earlier days of this journey

"less"

and 

"simple"

seemed paramount

so that I could hear God

and see Him at work

Then suddenly

"grace"

covered me

and I felt almost invigorated by the truth that

"all is grace".

Now

in these remaining days

the

"less"

and 

"simple"

feel ritualisitc

and more about keeping this "law" I made.

And maybe this is okay.

Maybe it's okay to follow this "law"--

listening

Perhaps I am to seek a new focus

or look at it with a different lens--

"What does God still desire to reveal to me through

"less"?

through

"simple"?

But where does

"all is grace"

fit in????

I so need this truth within

And my journeying through Lent has led me here

yet I fail to live this consistently...

the last few days more so again 

I resonate completely with Salina Beasley who pens these honest words--

"I am a recovering Pharisee.

Having spent three decades in 

chapels, sanctuaries, and fellowship halls

of all smells, shapes, and sizes,

only in recent years has it occurred to me

how much of my faith has been based on religious duty

and so little on the Gospel of God's grace...

So how can a recovering Pharisee approach the religious practice of Lent?

Lent to a recovering Pharisee is a 40-day fast to a former anorexic..."

So what am I to do?

I'm unsure

I'm asking Jesus--

"What is the "more" of You that You want me to experience?"

"What is the "extravagance" of the cross You desire to reveal?"

He's a faithful God

I'll wait for Him to speak