A Grace From God

"What messes our life up most--

is the expectation

of what life 

is supposed to look like."

--Ann Voskamp

Oh yes--does this ever mess up my life!!!

Not only are my expectations unrealistic,

they are self-focused

not God-focused.

So often

it's all about me.

And no,

I am not proud of this...

but as my Spiritual Director,

my dear journeying-with-me-sister would say,

"It is a grace from God

that you have become aware of this."

Ingrid has such a 

gentle and beautiful way of leading me through 

all the ugly of my days

There's no guilt

no chiding

not even this sense from her

that there is more to "work on"

She opens up the mess of my broken ways of  living 

and sees the beauty of a God

who has made "space for you" to understand a little more

It's all about 

freedom

and 

another  

"stepping stone in the dismantling of my kingdom"

It's about 

His pace

and 

not

 mine

It's about a God who sends life my way

and not the notion that

I am the one

climbing the mountain of transformation

And this is such 

welcoming

restful

freedom producing

news 

for one who is so very tired of

not being able to

"get it together and keep it together"!

Maybe

just maybe

the abundant life

is truly possible this side of Eden...

Another 

"grace of God"

that I am drawn to believe this:)