Unprepared

"...we are most prepared for Christ,

for Christmas, when we confess 

we are mostly not prepared.

Rest here.

There is only room in us

when we are done with us."

--Ann Voskamp

"The Greatest Gift"

I started early

planned wisely

so sure that this year I would arrive at today

and have my soul

prepared

I see now the arrogance

that somehow 

this is all dependent on my doing

that with time set aside

and a heart desiring to be awakened

somehow

I would be ready for my Lord

But now

with clearer vision

I 

see

Him

This holy God

emptying His glory

for my vain attempts

at 

holding on to "my glory"

My efforts are as filthy rags

my preparations so lacking

I come to the manger

aware of my emptiness

longing for Him

to fill my own womb-space

with

Himself

El Shaddai

I rest in You

I worship You